Good morning,

I tried this a few minutes ago and pushed the wrong button and lost everything I typed. I am going to take that as a sighn that what I typed wasn't what I needed to ask or talk about,I'll change my topic and see if this works.

I know that there is conversation that Jesus had where he talks about "turning the other cheek" (forgiveness), and also one of the commandments say "Honor thy mother and Father", what do you do when the two come into conflict with the other? My mother and I have had a very difficult relationship. It actually started when I was born; from there it just went downhill.

I love my Mom. I would do anything she asks of me,even lose everthing I have(I know this because I already have before), I just don't know when to say Ok enough is enough. Everytime I open my heart and my home to her I get hurt emotionaly,physchologicaly,physically,and spiritually. As far back as I can remember I have prayed that the Lord help me with the relationship with my Mom. I have even prayed that if it has to be this way to help me just brake contact totally.What happens is I can brake but then something happens in one of our lives where one of us need the other.Then it starts all over again.
I know whats going to happen everytime it starts.I keep praying that this time it will be diffrent,but Satan uses his #1 resource " prescription drugs". She is addicted to them. It's like alcohal she can go for months without it and then she gets the medicine and boom off she goes and anybody she has contact with see the evil,vendictive,hateful side of her. I don't know how to handle how she acts and what she says, and the word NO seems to hide it's self until I just can't take it antmore and if it hurts her feelings or makes her mad, well then I guess she just gets her feelings hurt or she gets mad.

After that I feel guilty because she is my Mother and the Lord say's that I should feel diffrent. I can't seem to forget and it scares me about is going to happen next,but I take that chance again.Is there a diffrence between Honoring my Mother,forgiveing her,and turning the other cheek? I don't know how to tell her NO but I don't want my family to go through what we refere to now as "one of grandmas medicine things".

Thank You
ssd